ok soooo i havent updated in forever...

my laptop isnt working

grades are on an on-going down slide and i dont give a crap

dont have a date for neches this friday

dont know how i stand, relationship wise...(am i single?? i have no idea)

tennis is over, therefore im sad. =(

24 schools days left before graduation

going to UT and living in a condo across from the doby tower

still working at abercrombie kids and hoping to work at the wellness center

well thats my life in a nut shell as of now

love you all! *muah*

ok sooo im baaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!! went to san marcos for a lil bit and i went shopping!! wooohoo lets see, here's a list of things that i got: Coach wristlets (for morgan and me and i have one pink one thats for sale!! only 35$), a new Coach purse thats white leather with tan leather trimming, Aldo sandals, imitation Dior sunglasses, Charolette Russe white top and some amazing beads, and some Nike sweats and black sweater...YAY! 

OH and get this! me and my family went to eat at a near by Chili's and guess who i saw there!??!!? my fucking ex-boyfriend (a.k.a. a complete wasted of time and a totally worthless piece of crap) who cheated on me with several different girls throughout the duration of our relationship.  but yeah, he was there with some of his friends who i didnt recognize and he could not stop looking in my direction.  haha im soo glad that i looked good that night to show him his loss...but yeah, he's fat and im hot and most of all im with the best BOYFRIEND EVER WHO'S EVEN HOTTER THAN HE COULD EVER BE!! bwahahaha *sigh* lets just say that that night was a complete ego boost!

so that was my monday

Tuesday: drove all day...finally got to beaumont really late...taylor calls me and i had to give him is keychain for his car before he left for houston tomorrow. so i went to his house and hung out for a lil bit. i LOVED it. then got home and watched Harry Potter: the Goblet of Fire for the 2nd time this week...then went to bed and slept till 1:30 the next morning...*sigh* it was bliss 

WHAT IS EVERYBODY DOING FOR SPRING BREAK?!?!?! THE BEACH? ROAD TRIP? N E ONE? N E ONE???

i need to vent!...i feel so torn up/sad/depressed...first of all i hate waiting...and second, i hate feeling so sad that it hurts...so im pretty much fucked b/c im goin through both...

if you love someone...you should know if staying with that person is worth it...you should know that the good ALWAYS outways the bad.................................if only things were that simple...there are always shades of grey, no matter how hard you try to blot everything with white-out and sharpie.  i hate taking breaks and not being able to be with the one you TRULY LOVE...but what i hate even more is knowing that this has to be done.

i've looked back on the past year and a half and i've been sooo happy...and i've also been sooo sad...if ya'll dont know already, last summer was why i've gone from a size 3 to a size 00 in a mere 3 1/2 weeks...i will not let myself go through that again, EVER...but i cant help but feel empty without having him around and yet  when he's with me, i'll be so ready to argue

so in conclusion, im confused and hurt and lonely for the time being. but i will promise to anyone who cares enough to read this (and to myself) that this wont last for long...the real camille, whose happy and always ready for a laugh will come back...atleast i hope so